Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Life is just so bizzare. You'll meet people of different kinds wherever you go and everyone is unique I suppose.
I'm still 15. Still young and had a lot to achieve, discovering myself, gain plenty of useful skills. Nevertheless, we're young, we make stupid mistakes on things we're not experienced on the things we just encounter.
I used to know this person. We'll call him, yes him, 'z' just because.
Anyway, I've known 'z' since probably grade 1 or before that. Make mental note that at that age, interest in opposite sex is like, minus 0 so obviously I won't know and wouldn't want to know, anything about z.
All I remember was that back then, he was such an asshole towards me and his little sister whom I happen to be best friends with.
Then I moved country. Coincidentally, his family moved to the same place and even to a neighbouring building as ours, not long after that.
Interest in opposite sex that time= -0 still.
So either way, I played with z's little sister a lot since we're practically sisters and neighbours and we come to each other's house often. And thus I often see z.
Not long after that puberty hit and all of a sudden goodbye barbies and sailor moon.
Helloo boys~
I've had a couple of unrequited crushes when z was still around. And surprisingly a few hearts I have to break :'(.
I remember I was a geek and a complete oddball. Well more than I am right now.
And most of all back then;
-clothes, am not bothered with style of sort
-coarse unstyled long dark hair which I hardly comb and wash once in a week (~eww yes I know D:)
-confidence is subzero level
-glasses worn everywhere
It was a Very VERY awkward stage. I remember that.
I have no idea WHY anbody would like me that time but yeah.
I started liking z just a few months till I had to move that country.
And my relationship with z was always based on mocking each other. But z sometimes goes all out on me calling me 'bitch' 'dumbass' etc.
I call him 'asshole' 'jerk' etc. back.
Those are normal.
We got nice moments too. But it's rare. VERY rare.
It's always a wit battle between me and z. Though I don't think either of us was very witty back then.
Back to the topic; Deja Vu
I think I met another z.
And for a few days I felt myself talking to him the whole time. The actual z not the subtitute z.
Except this time z
doesn't attract me in anyway.
And he doesn't call me a bitch in my face.
But given the chance I think he would.
Maybe it's just me. But still.
I'm having Deja VU moments for the past few days and all I could think about is my time back in Abu Dhabi.
Therefore the title of this entry.
Which I KNOW is extremely boring and doesn't make any sense but I just gotta get it out of my head.
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♥ 7:41 AM
